(அத்தியாயம் 39)1970 முதல் 1994 வரை சன்யாசியாக

mUzhry kfpik vd;w njhliu guzPjud; xU thu gj;jphpf;ifapy; vOjp> mJ G];jfkhfTk; te;jpUf;fpwJ.

Kjypy; mtiu jpUtz;zhkiyf;F Ngha; Nr\hj;hp ];thkpfis gw;wp tprhhpj;J vOJ vd;W nghpath Muk;gpj;J nfhLj;jhh;. mg;NghJ mthplk; nghpath: “ehd; Nr\hj;hp ];thkpfs; Nghy; MNtdh! vd $wpAs;shh;. mj;Jld; Paul Bruntondplk; njhlq;fp gy re;jh;g;gq;fspy; “ehd; ,e;j klj;jpy; klhjpgjp. vdNt mjd; rl;ljpl;lq;fis jhd; ehd; filgpbf;f Ntz;Lk;” vd $wpAs;shh;. vdNT jd;id xU Rje;jpukhd re;ahrpahf Mf;fpf; nfhs;s jPh;khdpj;j nghpath 60fspd; filrpapy; klj;jpd; KO nghWg;Gf;fisAk; ,istuhd = n[Nae;jpu ]u];tjp ];thkpfsplk; xg;gilj;J> mtiu [fj;FU Mf;fptpl;L> rpt];jhdj;jpy; (Njdk;ghf;fk;) Ngha; mkh;e;J nfhz;lhh;. re;jpunksyP];tuh; G+i[fis Mr;rhhpahsplk; xg;gilj;j nghpath> jd;id khdrPf G+i[f;F jahh;gLj;jpf;nfhz;lhh;. 1978 tiu xU 7 my;yJ 8 tUlq;fs; kpf fLikahd tpjpfis jdf;Fj;jhNd tpjpj;Jf;nfhz;L> mjpf ehl;fs; nksdj;jpYk;> jtj;jpYk; Mo;e;jhh;.

mg;NghJk; gf;jh;fs; epiwaNgh; mtiu jhprpf;ftUthh;fs;. me;j rkaj;jpy; Mg;gps;> khJis Nghd;w tpiyAah;e;j goq;fis thq;fp tUthh;fs;. mth; jq;fp ,Ue;j ,lj;ij Rw;wpAs;s Foe;ijfSf;F nghpathsplk; Nghdhy; me;j goq;fs; fpilf;Fk; vd;W njhpAk;. vdNt mq;F Ngha; epw;ghh;fs;. nghpathspd; mDf;f njhz;lh;fs;> Foe;ijfs; nghpaths; Nky; ,bj;J tpLthh;fNsh! vd mQ;rp mth;fis js;spg;Nghf nrhy;thh;fs;.

mijg;ghh;j;j nghpath mth;fsplk; “Vz;lh Foe;ijfis tpul;LfpwPh;fs;! mth;fSf;F MSf;F xd;W Mg;gps;> khJis goq;fis nfhL. thq;fpf;nfhz;L Ngha;tpLthh;fs; vd;ghuhk;. me;j rpy tUlq;fs; nghpathSf;F Foe;ijfs; jhd; epiwa Neuk; $l ,Ug;ghh;fs;. mij nghpathSk; kpfTk; urpj;jhh;.

1978 tUlk; Vg;uy; khjk; xUehs; tpbaw;fhiy 4.30 kzp thf;fpy; Fspj;J> =fhkhf;\p mk;kd; NfhapYf;F te;Jtpl;lhh;. mg;NghJ jhd; Nfhapy; jpwg;gjw;fhd Vw;ghLfis nra;J nfhz;bUe;jdh;. me;j Neuj;jpy; nghpathis mq;F vjph;ghh;f;ftpy;iy Nfhapy; rpg;ge;jpfs;. vdNt mtrukhf Xbg;Ngha; epyf;fy; =uhkre;jpurh];j;jphpfis mioj;J te;jdh;. mth; nghpathis rpwpJ fhj;jpUf;Fk;gb Ntz;b> Kiwg;gb mk;ghs; rd;djpia jpwe;jhh;. me;j Nfhapypd; nghWg;Gf;fs; midj;Jk; fhQ;rp klj;ij Nrh;e;jJ. vdNt fhQ;rp klhjpgjpfs; fw;gfpu`j;jpDs; nrd;W mk;ghisj; njhl;L G+i[ nra;th;. = uhK rh];j;jphpfs; nghpath cs;Ns tUthh; vd vjph;ghh;f;f> nghpath ntspkz;lgj;jpy; ,Ue;Nj jhprdk; nra;Jtpl;L> mq;fpUe;J Mjprq;fuh; rd;djpiaAk; jhprdk; nra;Jtpl;L> ntspapy; te;jhh;.

mq;fpUe;J> rq;fu klj;jpw;F te;jhh;. me;j rkak; = n[Nae;jpuh; ahj;jpiu nrd;wpUe;jhh;. klj;jpw;F te;j nghpath> = RNu];tuiu jhprpj;J> re;jpu nksyP];tuh; G+i[ kz;lgk; itf;Fk; ,lj;ij mile;J> gpuhh;j;jid nra;jhh;. gpd; jd; mDf;f njhz;lh;fs; %tiuAk; mioj;J> jhd; ahj;jpiu Nghf Nghtjhf $wpAs;shh;. mth;fs; ehq;fSk; nghpathSld; tUNthk; vd $wptpl;ldh;.

mg;NghJ nghpathSf;F taJ 82. efuq;fs; topahf nry;yhky;> rpd;d rpd;d fpuhkq;fs; topahf jkpo;ehL> Me;jpuh vd gazpf;fj; njhlq;fpdhh;. rpy khjq;fSf;Fg; gpwF rpj;Jhh; te;jile;jhh;. me;j rkak; mq;F jkpo;ehl;ilr; Nrh;e;j ngz;kzp fnyf;lh; Mf ,Ue;jhh;. mth; FLk;gj;ijr; Nrh;e;jth;fs; nghpath gf;jh;fs;.

eilgazkhf te;J nfhz;bUg;gJ nghpath vd mwpe;Jnfhz;l mth;> nghpathSf;Fk;> mth; njhz;lh;fSf;Fk; Nkw;nfhz;L gazpg;gjw;fhf Vw;ghLfisr; nra;J nfhLj;jhh;. mj;NjhL mth;fs; Mfhuj;jpw;fhd ghy;> japh; Nghd;wtw;iwAk; Vw;ghL nra;jhh;. mj;Jld; nghpathSf;F vd;W xU irf;fps; hpf;\h cz;L. mijAk; klj;jpypUe;J jUtpj;J nfhLj;jhh;.

me;j rkaj;jpy; Me;jpuhtpy; nfslh vd;w ngUk; njhopy;mjpgh; nghpathisg;gw;wp Nfs;tpg;gl;lhh;. nghJthf epiwa rd;ahrpfs; mthplk; nghUsjtp ngWthh;. mNj Nghy; nghpathSk; jd;dplk; cjtp Nfl;ghh; vd epidj;jpUe;jhh;. XhpU khjq;fs; nrd;wd. Mdhy; nghpathsplk; ,Ue;j ve;j cjtpAk; Nfl;fg;gltpy;iy. mNj rkak;> mtUila njhopyhsh;fSk;> rpy ez;gh;fSk; nghpathisg; Ngha; jhprpj;J tUtij mwpe;jhh;.

rhp ehKk; Ngha; vd;d jhd; elf;fpwJ> ghh;j;Jtpl;L tuyhk; vd nghpath jq;fp ,Ue;j ,lj;jpw;F te;jhh;. rpy kzp Neuq;fs; jq;fp mq;F elg;gitfis ghh;j;Jf;nfhz;bUe;jhh;. jhd; epidj;jJ Nghy rd;ahrp ,th; ,y;iy vd;gJ mtUf;Fg; Ghpe;jJ. nghpath mtiu mUfpy; mioj;J Ngrpdhh;. Mdhy; ve;j cjtpAk; Nfl;ftpy;iy. mtUf;F nghpathsplk; Xh; <h;g;G Vw;gl;lJ. mbf;fb tuj;njhlq;fpdhh;. nghpathSf;Fk; mth; mDf;f njhz;lh;fSf;Fk; Njitahd ghy; fha;fwpfis> kspif rhkhd; vy;yhk; jilapy;yhky; fpilf;f jhdhfNt Vw;ghL nra;jhh;. nghpathis jd; tPl;bw;F tUk;gb mioj;Jf;nfhz;Nl ,Ue;jhh;. mtUf;F gy njhopy;fs; cz;L.mjpy; xd;W liquor jahhpf;Fk; njhopw;rhiy. mth; tPl;by; ,Ue;J rpwpJ Jhuj;jpy; mtUf;F rpy Vf;fhpy; go Njhl;lk; cz;L. jpBnud xUehs; me;j Njhl;lj;jpw;F te;j nghpath> xU khkuj;jbapy; mkh;e;jhh;. xUtiu nfslh tPl;bw;F mDg;gp mtiu Njhl;lj;jpw;F mioj;Jtu nrhd;dhh;.

nghpath: “eP mbf;fb $g;gpl;Lf;nfhz;bUe;jhah! mjhd; te;Jtpl;Nld;” vd rphpj;jhuhk;.

nghpath fhQ;rpGuk; jpUk;gpa gpd; (1986 my;yJ 87) nfslhtpd; kfd; tp[athlhtpy; ,Ue;J fhhpy; te;J nfhz;bUe;jNghJ> mtUf;F kpfg;nghpa Mf;]pnlz;l; Mfp jiyapy; gLq;fhak; mile;jhh;. nrd;idapy; cs;s nghpa jdpahh; kUj;Jtkidf;F jd; igaid nfhz;Lte;J Nrh;j;jhh;. clNd fhQ;rpGuj;jpy; nghpathis jhprpj;jhh;. tptuq;fis mwpe;J nfhz;l nghpath> jd; ifapy; xU rhj;Jf;Fb goj;ij cUl;bf; nfhz;Nl mtUld; Ngrpf;nfhz;bUe;jhh;. gpd; me;j goj;ijAk;> rpwpJ tpG+jpiaAk; mthplk; nfhLj;J> “jpdKk; ,uz;L NeuKk; tpG+jpia ,l;Lf;nfhz;L th. mtDf;F tha; topahf Mfhuk; nfhLf;f Muk;gpf;Fk;NghJ ,ij [P]; nra;J Kjypy; nfhL” vd $wpdhh;. xUthuj;jpw;Fg; gpd; me;j goj;ij [P]; nra;j NghJ> gok; GjpjhfNt ,Ue;jjhk;. Ia;aq;fhh; khkh nrhd;dit.

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